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Jason Haden
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NEW ACCOUNT - :iconalon98:
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I think I'm slowly losing my sanity.
For the past few years, I've been gaining followers and publicity, and ignoring trolls... I appreciate all of my supporters. I really do love you guys. You made me feel better about myself whenever I've been in doubt.
But now, the doubt is just too much for me to handle. I keep arguing with people, wasting my time, making a fool of myself, acting like an asshole for no real good reason, and having spells of depression.
At first, I was able to handle the pressure... but these past few months, I just can't take it any more. I'm contemplating closing this account and laying low for a while, living without all of this stress...
But I don't want everyone to be disappointed, and I don't want to turn my back on everyone who's shown love and support for me these past few years. I was a much happier person before I was put in the public's eye...

I keep doing shit like this - facepunch.com/showthread.php?t… and this - epickitty54.deviantart.com/jou…  and people say this about me - notadeviantard.deviantart.com/… And I deserve it...
EDIT - redbluteam.deviantart.com/art/… This too...
I said some horrible things about my watchers, too... things I didn't mean, that I said just for the sake of arguing.... and I hate it and regret it so much...
The worst part is, I actually liked that thread on Facepunch, and I was too fucking retarded to be a good sport and take a joke...

I really don't know what's wrong with me. I keep telling myself I'll stop, and think I'm making progress, then I slip and fall and make another batch of people hate me... and I feel terrible and regret how I acted, and have to face the fact that those people will never see me the same way again...

I just wanna go back to the time when it was just me and my friends, and I didn't have to deal with everyone else, and all the pressure of being known about...
So, if this account disappears, don't be surprised. I may come back, may not.... don't know yet. Might even resurface as :iconalon98:... I really don't know.

Either way, I love you guys, and I wish you all the best. I've got some thinking to do.


UPDATE: I moved over to :iconalon98:, I'm gonna be there from now on. Good to have a fresh start on a new account. I feel much better now, and I managed to make amends with a few people, and got rid of people that just wanted me to crash and burn. I made some new friends, too.
So yeah, if you need me, I'm gonna be on my other account now.

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:iconbobby229:
What prgoram do you use for Suika?
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:iconlunicaura106:
Happy Birthday, Alonguy!
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:iconalonguy:
Alonguy Mar 28, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I'm on :iconalon98: now.
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:iconlunicaura106:
Hehe... >3> okay, gotchya
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:iconprogamer1013:
Happy Birthday!
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:iconalonguy:
Alonguy Mar 28, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I'm on :iconalon98: now.
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:iconalonguy:
Alonguy Mar 28, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I'm on :iconalon98: now.
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:iconmietony:
mietony Feb 24, 2014  Professional Interface Designer
Thanks for the FAV! :happybounce: +fav 
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:iconsupersonicslasher:
supersonicslasher Jan 4, 2014  Hobbyist Artist

trust me this will put a smile on your face, make your day, or help you Every night , someone thinks about you before
they go to sleep,
At least fifteen people in this
world love you.
The only reason someone would ever hate you is
because they want to be
just like you
There are at least two people in this world that
would die
for
you
You mean the world to someone.
Someone that you don't even know
exists
loves
you

When you make the biggest mistake ever,
something good comes from it.
When you think the world has turned its back on
you, take a
look.
Always remember the compliments you've received.
Forget the rude remarks.
So if you are a loving friend, send this
to
everyone on your list
including
the person that sent it to you.
Tonight

at
midnight your true love will
realize
they like

you.
Something good will happen to you between 12 in the morning
and
four o'clock pm
tomorrow,
it could be anywere . Get ready for the biggest
shock in your

life
If you break this chain YOU will be cursed with
relationship problems
for
the next ten years . Send this to fifteen people
in fifteen minutes !!
Make Someone else's day! Help get a smile on someone's face! Help someone out! <3 remember that your loved





F.R.I.E.N.D.S. 😉
= Fight for you 
= Respect you
= Involve you
= Encourage you 
= Deserve you 
= Save you
Send this to all your friends & me if I'm one......If you get 4 back u r liked but if u get 7 back then u r seriously loved

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:iconkrystalhater:
I like those Suika works. I hope one of these days you get a voice for her. I would love to hear her voice even when she's buck nude.
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:iconalonguy:
Alonguy Nov 18, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Yep.
And anything new with Suika will be on :iconalon98: from now on.
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:iconperson3166:
Is your name short for "alone guy?"
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:iconalonguy:
Alonguy Nov 17, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
No, actually. It's something retarded I made up when I was like, 11 and stuck with. Just like Egoraptor.
Except, well, now I'm moving to :iconalon98:... and retconning Alonguy to be just Alon now.
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:icondarkchaser:
thank you so much for the fav ^_^
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:iconalonguy:
Alonguy Nov 14, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You're welcome. ^_^
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:icongh0sthunt3r:
Watched you outta support and because I recognize you from YouTube =P 

My page has a link to my channel, btw
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:iconalonguy:
Alonguy Nov 13, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you. ^_^
And as a watcher, you get a llama.
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:icongh0sthunt3r:
thx, even though i dunno what theyre used for =P
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:iconalonguy:
Alonguy Nov 14, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
They're just fun to collect.
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